Recuperar
It’s been a surreal year so far. Like a newborn baby deer, we are taking tentative steps towards opening up since we went into lockdown on 14 March. Life is slowly returning as children play in the parks, families stroll along the ramblas, and friends gather for drinks on terrazas. Some bars and restaurants in my neighbourhood have reopened although many remain shut, including a pizza place around the corner that serves delicious, giant slices. I’ve been taking walks by the beach, enjoying the cool breeze and fresh air and exercising my legs. Less pleasant is having to jostle for space with everyone from joggers and cyclists, to dog owners and their pets.
One of the sobering things about the pandemic was that Chinese people and Asians as a whole were targets of racism. I had been bracing myself for racist comments and attacks after reading about such incidents in Madrid. Apart from a few furtive glances on the street and in the supermarket, I didn’t encounter any outright discrimination. Then it happened. The first was when a woman on a train platform backed away as I passed her. More recently, a teenage girl shouted “coronavirus” at me as I was walking home. It was upsetting but I understood their actions. It’s a scary situation and people give in to irrational thoughts and prejudices. It’s easier to blame Asians for spreading the virus then to think deeper and objectively.
Between the pandemic, the protests in Hong Kong and the US, and the long recession looming ahead, the next several years look bleak. Our lives have been and are still on hold. It’s hard to make plans because everything is so uncertain. My train to Valencia last month was cancelled and two festivals I had tickets for have been postponed to next year. I don’t know when I’ll be able to see my family and friends back home. All I can do now is live day to day and focus on recovering and rebuilding for when things are back to “normal”.